The Fool

“The future is called 'perhaps', which is the only possible thing to call the future. And the important thing is not to allow that to scare you.” -Tennessee Williams

I have struggled to begin again with this blog. If I give myself too much time to ponder, I will ponder myself into an abyss and the only thing that gets accomplished is emotional snacking and TikTok scrolling. And yes, that is what I have done. Frozen by political news, frozen by too many what ifs, and I am here to say, “fuck it, we're jumping into the Major Arcana. I am going to write this blog on my phone, I am going to get this done without all my little rituals, just fucking write it.“

When everything is scary and every option seems wrong, I dare us to step into the energy of The Fool. Or as many of us like to consider the card to be our protagonist of the hero's journey. So, stop grinding those teeth together, relax your leg and let’s journey. I have been the fool many times, I am built for new beginnings and I would like to be a guide for anyone seeking change but too afraid of the decisions, the projections, outcomes, and all of those ponderings that we use to avoid concretizing our dreams into reality.

The Fool isn’t afraid to look stupid. And often the circumstances in which the Fool begins their journey can be so harsh or discombobulated that the Fool has no time to consider how they’re being perceived. They only have energy to act, not doubt themselves or listen to people that would plant seeds of doubt. The Fool is forward moving energy, not like the Chariot, because that had specific direction, but more like forward moving into the unknown.

Don’t misunderstand me, The Fool is not a beacon of bravery that is a vehicle for success, oftentimes The Fool is just a fool. Therein lies our urgency back to doubt at the first jilt of uncertainty or embarrassment. We can’t know for certain of any outcome because the future is mutable as time isn’t linear. So spend all the money you want on readings, buy every tarot deck, but you must take an action. If you don’t know what action to take, ask your guides to give you clear and specific signs, ask a mentor, do a pros and cons, look at your finances, be real with yourself.

I have moved to four different states and I don’t feel ready to stop. I have started different career paths, worked hard at them and let them go, I have loved many and let them go when the time came to do so. I have a lot of Gemini and Capricorn in my chart. If something doesn’t make sense anymore, I’m out. That’s honestly the first step for me in every major life decision. “Is where I am at a logical place for me to be with this little life I have?”

The Fool is the courage to make the first step, next in line is the Magician where you employ all of your skills and knowledge. So if you’re starting your career over, how does this new field relate to what you’re leaving? How are you ahead of the curve with your attained knowledge and experience?

It always pisses me off as a 35 year old returning college student that I am treated like an anomaly when that is not even factual. Lots of people change their career in their 30’s. Because it’s irresponsible to assume 17 year olds have their life purpose sorted out. But for capitalism purposes, they’d like us well trained and useful by age 22. Fuck that noise, this is our life. Use it like you don't get another one.

The photo I picked for this blog is me and Perry at the corner of Eleanor and Leticoe in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Drew and I were about to move to Arkansas! I had no idea how much my life would change from that moment on, all I knew is that I was ready for warmer weather and waterfalls. I wanted to strengthen my spirituality and my Reiki skills and Arkansas called! We loaded up our car and our animals and made the journey.

I did not know the roller coaster that life would take us on shortly after this photo was taken. Theft, deaths, fake friends, real friends, death doulas, self-employment, becoming wild, screaming at the moon, struggles with booze and psychedelics and really finding out who the fuck we are. We are different people now than we were in 2021 when we made the decision to live in Arkansas. Would we have still made the decision? I don’t know, that’s why knowing the outcome isn’t always helpful. But you have to make a decision and then do your best with that decision.

I will explore that journey through this blog section on the Major Arcana. I hope it gives you courage and even more I hope it gives you the gumption that you need to live your best life!

Blessed be my fools.